I don't really have much to say, but feel compelled to blog since I've been slacking lately.
Today was pretty fun. Actually a very fun weekend with friends and whatnot. Good super bowl parties. Lots of good conversations.
Lots to think about…
Could I work harder?
Could I care more?
Could I stop pretending?
Am I doing what really matters?
Am I just going through the motions with some things? With a lot of things?
Am I being honest?
Am I making the most of the days, the moments, the conversations I have?
Do I even care?
Am I sleepwalking through life?
Am I just faking it?
Can I stop being so controlling, so manipulative?
Will I ever really learn to trust?
Will I ever get the things my heart seems to long for so so much?
Do I really want them? Or am I fooling myself?
How do I know what I'm supposed to do next?
How do I stop living for/in the immediate and focus on what matters?
How do I let go?
How do I stop judging and puffing myself up like I'm better?
Will I ever feel really free?
How can I help and challenge and lead and inspire others?
How can I be inspired and challenged and led myself?
How can I learn to follow better?
To listen more? Talk less?
Ask better questions?
No answers, not any ones I think I want to listen to right now anyway.