decisions

this weekend was quite a lot of fun. very busy with disciple now at church, and especially the art project we did saturday. pictures soon.

i've been thinking about a lot today, but don't have much to say. not yet, at least.

i've been listening to the new Jill Phillips' cd, The Good Things, ever since i bought it a week or so back. this song is called "Any Other Way":

Do you remember that Monday when
The world fell out beneath our feet
Both surprised that we had been
So close to losing everything
Putting one foot in front of the other
felt like such a long, hard step to take
We thought about moving and starting again
But it was something we could never outrun so we just stayed
I wouldn’t have it any other way
I wouldn’t have it any other way

Gaining back the trust we lost
Was harder than just losing it
But if we wanted change at all
The pain was a prerequisite
So little by little, a piece at a time
We were putting back together what was left of a broken life
It wasn’t quick, it wasn’t easy
But that kind of change isn’t one that happens overnight
I wouldn’t have it any other way
I wouldn’t have it any other way

When we first met, love was a feeling
But making it last, that’s a decision
A good decision

When we watch the kids run through the yard
Sometimes I just can’t help but think
That every bit of what it cost
Was worth it for this family
‘cause I wouldn’t have it any other way
I wouldn’t have it any other way
I wouldn’t have it any other way

listen here

the whole song is incredibly powerful, but this one lyric gets me especially:

When we first met, love was a feeling
But making it last, that’s a decision
A good decision

a decision. love. discipline. honesty. integrity. doing the right thing. all decisions. i want so badly to go by what i feel--i'm ruled by my feelings all too often, honestly, but the truth is, when it all comes down, the right thing is often the hardest decision.

i hate that, and yet i know more and more each day that it's so true...